Six weeks have passed since I last watched pornography. My mood swings have minimized; this week I have felt much more level-headed than the previous two weeks. Other than my mood swings happening less frequently, this past week has otherwise been pretty uneventful. I have been going about my weekly activities as normal, and I do not feel much different compared to last week. I would say, that after six weeks, I have been able to gain enough confidence in myself that I will not watch pornography again. This has allowed me to stop fixating on the focus of not watching pornography. Not watching pornography has now simply just become a part of my routine. Now, I can go about go about my day with very minimal worry that I will watch pornography again, and this had me feel more in control of my life. Not watching pornography has helped me practice delaying gratification. Now that I am no longer constantly seeking that instant hit of dopamine from pornography, I have been much more selective when it comes to picking rewarding activities. I now seek activities that are challenging and require some patience. These activities do not reward instant gratification, and when I have completed them, I feel much more deserving of the rewarding feeling. I have relearned how to say no to myself, and I feel that by doing so, I am on the right path to being able to better overall choices and judgements. Other than when I am writing my blog, I am starting to forget how many days have gone by, which makes it easier to continue on this journey.
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